Looking forwards...

Through many years of chaos, I repeated the same mistakes: round and round in circles; from bad situation to bad situation; from trauma to trauma. The never ending and repetative cycle, repeated over and over again.

Until I realised the lessons available from it all. Then I was able to start the process of inner healing and change, thus changing my life on the outside. It took much long, and often very painful work. But now peace is now descending upon me - slowly; surely.

Life has many lesson… Continue

Just a few short weeks ago, (no more than 4 or so) I was a wreck. Gripped by intense drug addiction that had consumed me for about 10 months or so, (but the addiction a problem many times for years before that). Mental health problems from being a young child, only made a hundred times worse when the drugs issue became serious in 1993. Living my whole adult life - until now - blundering from trauma to crisis to trauma, before having a chance to recover from the last. Abusive and destructive rela… Continue

As you may know I have suffered with drug addiction for many years, my latest relapse the most ferocious and self destructive with a dangerous inability to stop, even when I had taken too much already. I knew and had faith that I would be OK but also knew I was running out of time.

Night before last I was planning the next day and knowing I had money coming, the switch I can never switch off flipped and planned what drugs I was going to take. I wrestled with myself trying to talk myself out of… Continue

I sense things are about to change very much for the better, not just for me but for many lightworkers. The changes for me have already started, and they have been a long time coming, I can tell you, (but DEFINITELY worth the wait!!) In a very short space of time I have experienced many miracles of personal healing like I knew were possible but more amazing than I ever imagined. All prayers I have ever spoken are being answered. I have rapidly gone from loosing my faith all but completely, (and… Continue

For so long I was so lost. From my earliest memory, aged about 3 I had a really low opinion of myself, some sort of guilt, feeling like I was the worst person on this Earth. I knew I was different, but I hated that feeling and always felt self-conscious and uncomfortable with it. Due to abuse that started happening in my early childhood, I became emotionally and psychologically sick. But somehow I had a subconscious awareness of this. I had certain behaviours that I subconsciously knew were “not… Continue