Steven's Blog (10)

Through many years of chaos, I repeated the same mistakes: round and round in circles; from bad situation to bad situation; from trauma to trauma. The never ending and repetative cycle, repeated over and over again. Until I realised the lessons available from it all. Then I was able to start the process of inner healing and change, thus changing my life on the outside. It took much long, and often very painful work. But now peace is now descending upon me - slowly; surely. Life has many lesson… Continue

Just a few short weeks ago, (no more than 4 or so) I was a wreck. Gripped by intense drug addiction that had consumed me for about 10 months or so, (but the addiction a problem many times for years before that). Mental health problems from being a young child, only made a hundred times worse when the drugs issue became serious in 1993. Living my whole adult life - until now - blundering from trauma to crisis to trauma, before having a chance to recover from the last. Abusive and destructive rela… Continue

As you may know I have suffered with drug addiction for many years, my latest relapse the most ferocious and self destructive with a dangerous inability to stop, even when I had taken too much already. I knew and had faith that I would be OK but also knew I was running out of time. Night before last I was planning the next day and knowing I had money coming, the switch I can never switch off flipped and planned what drugs I was going to take. I wrestled with myself trying to talk myself out of… Continue

I sense things are about to change very much for the better, not just for me but for many lightworkers. The changes for me have already started, and they have been a long time coming, I can tell you, (but DEFINITELY worth the wait!!) In a very short space of time I have experienced many miracles of personal healing like I knew were possible but more amazing than I ever imagined. All prayers I have ever spoken are being answered. I have rapidly gone from loosing my faith all but completely, (and… Continue

For so long I was so lost. From my earliest memory, aged about 3 I had a really low opinion of myself, some sort of guilt, feeling like I was the worst person on this Earth. I knew I was different, but I hated that feeling and always felt self-conscious and uncomfortable with it. Due to abuse that started happening in my early childhood, I became emotionally and psychologically sick. But somehow I had a subconscious awareness of this. I had certain behaviours that I subconsciously knew were “not… Continue

Somewhere along the line, I became a very judgemental and critical person and more often than not I have (to my shame...) judged many books by their covers. I didn't do this as a child. I always saw the light and goodness within everyone I met. I felt everyones pain. As I grew up I continued to see everyones goodness. But as I turned into a young man, people who I saw the good in turned out to be people who didn't care, people who had alterior motives and who dumped on me from a great height. I… Continue

Well, the last few months have probably been the darkest I've yet experienced. It has certainly been the greatest time of learning for me. Particularly in the last 9 years I have spent a lot of time blaming others for my misfortune and difficult times: "she hurt me", "they cursed me" to name a couple of statements I have said many times. And while these statements may have had an element of truth, The last few months have brought me to the conclusion that much of my pain and problems have been… Continue

For some I have been having encounters with people who I thought just had plain negative intentions towards me. I have been holding them responsible for my own weaknesses and darker aspects. But last night, sat in my room, I realised that all they have been doing is reflecting aspects of me I have not been dealing with. I think I must have been so deep in denial. But last night I was was shown it all, crystal clear. They are not things I like about myself, with them I do not have a good view of… Continue

Sorry this blog isn't going to be as positive as my last. When I was seventeen, I first encountered darkness where I was psychically attacked by two people. This did a lot of damage to me and my life. Over the years following I encountered a few other people who did the same. But for the last year they just seem to be attracted to me. The latest one, a guy who I thought was my soul mate has turned out to be just the same, sending negative energy my way. I need help, my confidence is at an all t… Continue

It's been a long and very hard journey, but I have finally arrived!! My dreams seem to be coming true and all my prayers answered. I always knew through all the hard times that "I will get through this", and here I am, emerging into the light for the first time. And such beauty I am starting to see and feel. Magic is surrounding me and not only am I feeling more love, but I am being given love that is changing my whole world and my whole life. Things will certainly never be the same again. I… Continue